today has been one of those floaty-can't-keep-my-eyes-open days. could be just one of those days. could be that i've been feeling my head shifting gears again and all i can hope is that it doesn't last very long. could just be the fucking daddy issues i'm dealing with in my head. my post the other day about my family not caring about what i do reminded me that dad was the one person that did but then i couldn't even talk to him for more than five minutes without getting pissed because he was mentally gone for the last year or two. (irony, god i hate that bitch sometimes.) whatever, i'll get over it.