September 20th, 2003

Angel (John)

just call me toast

Cause I am totally brainfried. I have all these story ideas bouncing in my head, but I don't have the urge to write them. I dont want to write anything really. Everytime I try...I just stare at my hand with the pen in it...my mind blank. The stories are there, I can see and hear the voices of the characters, but they dont want to come out.

I have two stories (john/scorpy luvfest and 2 johns fic)completely hand written, but when I go to type them up...I just dont want to.

I know I've been in a funk the last week or so and again I gotta say thanks to those of you who have tried to make me feel better, but for some reason I just dont want to write anymore. And that upsets me. Cause this is one of the few things I get to enjoy anymore.